i just cant. i cant do nothing at my house. im in prison. my mom put parental controls on my 3ds, wii, ipod, and dsi xl. so dont give me your friend codes. i dont even think my parents love me. they were watching a movie last night with my brother and sister and i walked in, and they said they didnt want to see me, and to go to my room. there not my real family. my real family is somewhere in the world. last night i was talking to god, if i can go to heaven. i hate the earth. every little peice of it. and i dont think any of you guys understand how i feel. its horrible living like this. and my parents dont trust me no more. nobody dose. i dont even want to go see the doger game anymore. im crying and i cant stop. i should just commit suaside. stab a knife in my heart. itll be over with. no more torrcher and hell. i want to live in peace, where no one can bother me. and my birthday was the worst. i dont even think ill find love someday. even from a special person i know. i just want everybody to know if i die someday, that ill still remember all my clossest friends and that all of you will still live in my heart. i cant take it. i dont need anybodys help no more. just leave me alone...